I havent written in a while…and what is ‘mellontophobia’?

This is me writing from a Sunday night, where I cant breath so all things considered I thought ‘hey, why don’t I try writing again’

this is a bad thing as I do have ambitions for a future as someone who wants to work for a magazine or even own a magazine and I am so bad at most things. When it comes to plans and setting out things to do, it is so hard for me to concentrate on the now as I kind of get scared of the future.

‘mellontophobia’ is what could be described as a fear of the future, however there is no actual scientific term for the fear of the future.

I get scared because what I’m doing right now may or may not have an impact on my future and that scares me. If I carry on with this and become weirdly famous like Zoe Sugg, It would be awesome. However If I also carry on with this and it takes up all of my time I could fail tests and become homeless.

I’m probably being dramatic. but I want to be somewhere cool and funky in the future.

4am // stars

Being awake at this time in the morning is really weird, because you know that everyone is asleep and that you can watch rubbish teleshopping without anyone knowing. The only why I am awake is because I have a cold, I know right, it sucks.

But as I awake all hot and bothered and unable to breath, I open my curtains and my window. Stars. and at 3-4am they have never looked so beautiful. I feel the cold night air on my face and it feels so crisp and fresh. I then could smell the night air and it was cold and sweet. living in England I know that everyone talk about how bad the weather is and that it rains and is windy, but I take my time to respect the night weather when it is clear and the stars are out.

if it is a full moon I will sleep with my curtains open. this may sound really weird to you but its good luck.

well I think it is

anyway

catch y’all later

what about school?

ah the subject of school eh? for a teenager living in England and able to have the ability and accessibility to go to school, we have an advantage, whereas in other countries there are people who will risk their lives to go to school. For example Malala Yousafzai. She was shot in the head for her actions, and as I look at the people around me that are joking about rather being shot than going to school. I know that this is just a joke and that people are only joking and banter and whatever you like to call it. But you don’t see how lucky you are and what advantages of school and education have on the rest of your life.

This is so important and you are lucky to go to school.

I don’t get people who don’t try and decide not to work and to be rude. its just not on. Like what is your problem? stop. your not funny. or cool. and it definitely does not make you look good at all.

but that is my opinion. I feel like I need to take what I have into thought and need to appreciate what I have a lot more.

catch y’all later

p.s I will have a less heavy blog next time

hello

This is such a clincé start to a blog but, hey ho here we go. my name is …… and that is all you need to know of that, I am fifteen years old and need a way to speak to people and express my way of the world. I know that my voice and what I say may not be relevant to anything and that it is so small compared to the other millions, and my opinion is nothing because it won’t change anything, but to be able to get my views and thoughts about things out somewhere for someone to read, I would be absolutely grateful and excited to know that someone is reading something that I have written.

writing to be honest is not my strong point but speaking is, so if I preserve with myself and try to work with my myself we would make a great team.

anyway I will be blogging about events and findings along my way of life, also blogging about my hobbies like fashion and photography which sound splendid together.

catch y’all later muralgurl